I got several thing of my queue list. first i need to convert some/alot of video files so I can transfer them to my ipod nano. I just want them on the ipod to keep me occupy while I'm on BART. The commute everyday takes about 45 minutes each way. I also squeeze in some video watching time during lunch...So each day I got 2.5 hours chunk of video watching time. I enjoy them as a way to be entertain as well as an escapade from the hustle and bustle of the architecture world that I love to be in. It's just a good way to unwind myself. It's a nice feeling.

I'm sure I got more to say about:
Crysis
Call of Duty 4
Super Mario Galaxy
King of Queens
Seinfeld
Futurama
Code Monkey
More? Probably

Not a lot to write. It's just a lazy Sunday for me. I don't expect to do anything today but watch some football and play some games. It's just a relax occasion for me to unwind and regroup myself before another week. The reason I want to unwind and regroup because I am doing hectic things. It's not that I hate the stuffs I am doing, I just don't like it. However, I do get to learn and I do get compensation for my work. That is as good as it gets. I just need to keep the "go" going to expand on my experience level. Once I get there, I think I'll apply to grad school and work on this idea I got in my mind since my thesis. This idea is almost a natural progression of my open source architecture thesis. I don't think this new idea has been through of or written about. This can be a profound idea. I'm sure if I get a year to explore and expand on this idea, it will be something great for me and for the future of architecture. Yea, I might be thinking a little bit beyond my capability. But with a little more experience, nothing is not impossible. Like I always say: The difficult I do immediately, the impossible takes time. Time will tell. I will probably share my progression here. As for now, the impossible have to wait.

Tired. That's what I'm feeling right now and has been lethargic like that since the holidays ended.

I can be tired because I am picking up redlines. You might say...hey Mike...isn't that what you're career is built upon? Yes and no my friend. I don't might picking up redlines on drawings...but I am doing drawings that I have no precedents on. I'm doing a section for a bending chimney for an existing fireplace and I'm picking up redlines for shaded, shadowed, hatched elevations just to make the shade and shadows as real as possible. That is through. That is making me lethargic about it.

Last nite was delightful. White Elephant party and it was a great time with friends. It's a wonderful gathering. Don't want to say too much about how great it is.

The deepest black is always blue. I am feeling a little blue right now. Blue is a feeling of powerless, a feeling of regret, and/or a feeling of continuous cycle of a powerless regret. I guess I just want to write about something to make me feel a little more content...I get more content if I write. I am going to write...mostly to say what I feel.

You, the person I'm thinking, I just want you to know I'm thinking of you. You might say it's sweet that I'm thinking of you. You think sweet but I think morbid. I am not thinking of you in a sweet manner. I used to think of you in a sweet manner but I am not getting anything sweet back. It's not a reciprocative affair. It's just a single stream and to be honest, I am tire. I am tire of being the giver. It should not be how things work.

Think about it. Girls or people always complain that guys doesn't listen. What is listen? It is not just hearing. It is to think and to have compassion for someone when they are talking. When someone say something, it requires a reciprocative action to listen in order to create a conversation. If I feel like I am just streaming my thoughts, basically I feel like I am giving a lecture. That is tiresome.

I am a giver. I never want to give people any thing is a superficial or a fiscal manner. It is not right. It is never right. Please don't look at me as something monitory. Money is only thing that let you trade for items that temporary fill the voids inside you. Please listen. Please fill the voids inside you by taking action other than purchase. You are what you make of yourself.

I'm done as of now.