(To start this with a great appreciation of myself)I am an awesome person. (To continue this with an explanation of that statement) All my friends around me are as awesome as well. My friend Harsh have been helping his friends that direct film to create a website for him. He already got couple of calls a from entertainment people about building them a website. And those calls and email will rise once that movie releases and be really popular and Harsh will get a lot of calls about making a website. So Harsh told me about it and I want to help him on it. I do however need to touch up on Dreamweaver. I do have a great idea for his DJ friend that want a website. I want to relearn the new Dreamweaver and do a quick rough draft of a DJ website to think about. It is almost like I am back in studio but replacing pencil and exacto blades with a mouse. But that doesn't stoo me from drawing my ideas with my hand and sketchbook. NEVER!!

I think I should somehow compose a little outline for a book that I want to compose. A book can also be like a portfolio. To me, a portfolio is just a collection of my work with little things written about it. I kinda have one but I felt it's a little empty because it lacks some thoughtful writing about it. I can say another reason is I want to update my architecture approach. I used to be all about building it and minimize the use of computers. Now I am more grounded about the open source idea. It is more about using the way solo programmers use and share computer code with everyone. It goes back to the idea of doing things for yourself. As an architect...we should try to make our client happy...your goal is to build a great building that you and the client will like. It shouldn't be a show piece...it should be a piece that will make people come and go just to absorb the detail, material, and composition...not just like it formally.

This was found in my current sketchbook about my views at what i was working on. I currently and perhaps will not be working on it. from what i wrote...and knowingly...not working on it is good. Note to self and everyone...design film sounds good but you dont learn and a lot of the things they do are horrible...treat people with no ethics. i just want to learn and do design and not only do 3d model in a so-call design firm. that was not what a designer do and be train to do.

here is what i wrote:

The scale of project such as 19th street is at times overwhelming. it doesn't allow explanation of materials and methods. sometimes i question myself what kind of designer I am? wht do i like things? why do i like smaller, well constructed, well thought out things. maybe it's the fact that i enjoy short stories. a story that i can enjoy and easily comprehend in one sitting...and can also find the depth with the repeat readings. i'm not disliking novels and epics...those are not the things i am fascinated with. I think that also have to do with the fact that when i design, i think about how "I" would build it...not how a contractor would build it. am i an architect that wants to be a builder or a builder that wants to be an architect?

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I personally don't have new skin that I will blog about it but I've trying to give this blog a new skin and I got this new skin that I created. I was in an editor that allows me to select the layout, color, lines...and this is what I got thus far. I will most likely change something after this. My idea it to create a blog that reflects my drawings and my drawing boards. Those are the great thing in architecture and they are replaced by computers. It is that discussions I always have (with myself most of the time.) I believe that computer should not replace your creativity. Computers got this thing with industrialization that takes away your creativity and crafting skills. I think the best architecture is not just the form...it is about the thoughts that an architect and craftsman took in the creating that detail. That's my entry for my new dermis.

I have a lot of time so I decided to look through my old sketch book...I was impressed by some drawings and some writings I have in my sketchbook...So I think I might start a miniseries with some scans and some writings I did in the past. This post would be several random writing about a girl

Used

We used to
talk for hours on end
You used to
I used to you
Used...to
I fell so used
so used
used to


If you do a bad thing for a good reason, does it justify the bad thing or is the bad thing still bad. If the victim of the bad thing would agree to that good reason...then it's justify.

We are different people to different people...but I feel that we are being ourselves when we're together, and that's something special and comforting. Nothing's gonna change that.

I won't treat you like a guy so don't treat me like a girl

I promise that I won't go away ever. I will always be there when you need me...but you need to promise me that we're friends...but you will not rule out the potential for something more and we are not just friends. You don't have to worry about risking our friendship by saying no to a more intimate relationship...just don't rule out the possibility.

She don't want to create tension between us. The fact that I have feelings for her make her think that it's just going to create tension and she don't want extra drama.



Helping you more and pack...If you don't ask me, I would still offer you help. I'm just that type of person. I dont' ask for anything in return. If helping the people I care about to ease their load, their stress...it's well worth it. And doing during those last days our time together is already limiting...spending time with you more and pack is well worth it.

That hug we had in the packing lot. It's hard letting you go. I've know you for 6 months and we're not going to see each other on a regular basis. that's why I want to hold on to you as long as I can. That good bye just made me realized how much I would miss you.

I haven't write anything on this blog lately now because I am busy but I am doing the daily routinely stuffs I do everyday.

I did met with my orthopedic doctor who said my leg heal up great and my arm is healing quickly but not 100% yet so I still have a cast on until we meet again.

I did talked about the build-build project I am planning to tackle with a friend of mine. I don't mind to ask for more help but we are just starting and I did all of the post...3 of them so far. I hopeful my friend put up a good rebuttal or commental post up so the site can be interesting and have a dialog of what we believe architecture should be. It is kind of ironic cause we do work for architect that we don't believe their architecture is good and we just work there for the benjamins.

My memory therapist think I am improving a lot in the last 3 sessions. I am improving really well and I hope the sessions will end soon. Not that I believe I am a genius but I want to concentrate my brain power on build-build architecture. I did consider designing a series of furniture. I do have 3 in my arsenal...but some of them doesn't fit the build-build philosophy. Maybe I'll pair the furniture with some writing of what I think of my furiture. Who knows.

Happy Birthday Jenn. Hope you enjoy the crappy-ish card that I made for someone else. Smile!

I know, this entry is couple of days late. Chinese New Year was yesterday. I spend last few days celebrating the event and my relative get to see me being happy and healthy. Me being there is a bonus for them and get to see them smile is a big bonus for me. It is a create time of the year but the Chinese restaurant and way too crowded and service is slow...plus food is not as great as it usually is. That is a disappointment but nothing else really is during this time of the year.

finally got an email from a girl I use to care about. She wants to visits me and gave me several dates to pick from. I guess those are the days she wont be attending an interview for job. I gave her an email telling her which day i will be free. I guess I will see if she is gonna make it on time because everything she tells me she will do is late. I will also want to see what her actions will be when she is around and how a balance person like me will interact with her...we'll see

As the title of the entry have Jenn's name in it. It doesn't really mean those of you aren't name Jenn can't read it. This is no letter to her. It is more of a message I want her to read because we had a brief chat and she brought up the fact that she check out this blog out once in a while. I'm just shotting for that once in a while moment to make her smile.

So I caught you checking out my blog and you should enjoy some of the photos I posted. You might find yourself appearing in some of them. Maybe you'll be lucky to find me and you in a picture...sorry I wasn't right next to you but Michelle as a divider isn't so bad. I hope you enjoy the images and feel like leave a a comment on this page or you can find my email address on the side bar and give me a lengthy email. I just switched to the blogger with gmail as my sign up name...I don't know how it work now or what is cool. I need to check out...but that's all I have to say...not just to you Jenn but to all the people that read this blog...so I just want to say thanks to you all, especially you Jenn.

I guess I'll do another blog entry because I feel like it. I think this will help me filter out some of my thoughts and help me think better. Oh Frankie, how great and gorgeous you are. You made me think about my life as a whole now. I am not tilted towards architecture anymore. You said I am more balance and I do feel I am. I am not tipped at architecture but I am spending that energy to everything and especially everyone around me. I love my mom, dad, sister, and my extended family. They care about me. They care about how I am, where I am, who I am...I got a little teared up just typing that in. I think what I've been through is a journey I need to take to know who or what I really am. I am Michael...I love you all.

I am sorry for all these weird pictures being posted once in a while. I just want to post some of my pictures to show people my life. I guess a conversation with a great gorgeous girl Frankie can summarize this behavior. She asked me why have I been so expressive after my accident. It made me think and analyze myself. I guess I dont want o be a stuck up anymore. I want to express my feelings to those I care about. I kept too much of that stubborn feelings within me too much when I was living in a hospital with a lot of strangers...some are great people...I do wish to say more...but i'll save it later or maybe after more pictures about my and other's life.